I didn’t post one of the pictures to social media. I didn’t share another on all 3 platforms that I had been doing until I skipped one picture (Instagram, Facebook and Twitter).
I didn’t post one picture as I was worried about upsetting/offending people. I’m not posting these on the days that I make them so by the time this is posted I may have missed more – because I am worried about upsetting people.
With some I don’t like the quality of the pictures but the whole point of it is to make it easy for me. Most of them so far have been taken with my phone, which I always have with me so it’s easy. The point of this project isn’t to have perfect photos, most of the time the pictures are just to illustrate the story or just to provide a visual – like today, a bad picture of me with plants that I am plantsitting and a picture of the plants.
I guess today’s caption is to do with my anxiety around social media and a continuing fear of what other people think. I guess the ‘funny thing’ is that my feeds are constantly about other people’s lives, but then I feel weird posting about my own life as there are way more important things that people should be looking it. I suppose it goes back to the problem I used to have with me making self-portraits too. Shouldn’t I be ‘saving the world’ instead? In reality I’m not a suitable candidate for saving the world and I’m better off donating my money to people who will do a better job than me. Also I’ve realised that self-esteem and self-confidence is an important tool that people need. I’m working on myself so that I can be a better human within my communities, but also receiving messages from people about how my work has helped them has also helped me to accept that taking self-portraits isn’t the worst thing that I could be doing.
Now I am starting work on a project with other people and I’m incredibly worried about screwing it up and displeasing everyone that I am working with. I hope I can work with them to create a project that everyone involved in is proud of. We shall have to wait and see…